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Sat, 04 Mar 2023, 17:57


I'd like to apologise.
If anyone saw me recently lambasting them, calling them useless, worthless, having never accomplished anything..
I swear, I did NOT, in any way shape or form, intentionally do that.

What happened was that AndyH posted a quirky post about calling all of his cars "Jayenkai", and I posted in my usual self-deprecating style, asking if it's because they (the cars) ultimately never accomplished anything worthwhile.
This was absolutely something that I'm all too comfortable joking about, as far as myself goes.

Unfortunately, because AndyH had used the [you] tag, which I didn't realise, whenever anyone else read it, it came out as ...
Andy : "I called my car [insert name here]"
Evil Jay Overlord : ".. LOL, because they're a fucking useless douchebag, right?! LOL.. Evil laugh in their face.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!"

I'm about 95% sure that some people have read that, gone "Oh, fuck off, then, Jay, you overlording twat", and haven't been back since.
To them, I can only sincerely apologise.
They probably won't ever read this.
But I'm truly sorry to them all.

I know I can be self deprecating to an extreme sometimes.. most of the time.. But I typically reserve that only for myself.
Almost every day I find myself thinking how much of my life has been wasted making stupid little 8-bit tiny games, and how none of that energy has gone on to produce anything of any real worth to the world.
If I'd spent even half the time and energy making anything even vaguely functional, then who knows how different my life could've ended up, instead of being stuck on the same couch every day, farting about doing the same thing for decades.

But that's me, and I'm ok making fun of that predicament because.. Ultimately, I know I have at least done something. I have a long list of games at the very least. Even if nobody plays them, and I'm whiling away the hours in a small abandoned corner of the interwebs.

Infrequently, I'll extend that blanket to our community, as a bunch of blokes who sit in the corner waffling on about not much, and how we're all still stuck to BASIC 40 years after everyone else abandoned it.
I think I'm ok joking about those kinds of things, right? Does anyone take offense when I do? Maybe they do.
I probably shouldn't do that.

But, under no circumstances do I target, belittle, and put down people.
I can think of maybe 3 or 4 occasions maximum when I've specifically "popped" online, and one of those was when I told Stealth to STFU in the Chat, when he kept badgering me about Ajaxifying Threads, back in the chatroom about a decade ago.
That's more of an explosion of annoyance, rather than calling him useless or downright insulting him.
I don't *think* I've done that.
Have I?
If I have, do let me know I'm a twat.

And once more, please do accept my sincere and absolute apologies if you've been offended by the recent post, or anything else.

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Sat, 04 Mar 2023, 22:25
I had not noticed anything.

Being self aware can be difficult. I have the habit of jumping the gun to every now and then. More evaluation needed 🙈 I started reading more about biology. Discovering I had not been noticing things like starting to feel a bit cold had a influence on my thoughts.

This site keeps me of the streets thanks jay!
Sun, 05 Mar 2023, 02:25
Dammit, I missed that one I bet it was quait a read.

Don't worry about insulting me, I'm quite thick skinned.

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Sun, 05 Mar 2023, 05:23
Jay you're a sweetheart and this was obviously an accident

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Sun, 05 Mar 2023, 19:35
Really worried I might've seriously offended Rockford.
He was last on the site about half an hour after my post, and even a Facebook messenger apology message hasn't been read.
"It's the weekend, he's probably shut all communications off"... ... right?
God, I hope it's only that.

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Wed, 08 Mar 2023, 02:50
I did indeed really seriously totally offend Rockford, and I don't think he's coming back. But he did finally at least reply to my facebook message, so.. At least I know he's ok.

I'm sorry that we've lost Rockford.
The site won't be the same without him.

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Wed, 08 Mar 2023, 08:01
I still don't know what happened, I think that one went right over top of my head.